Martha's palms were sweaty, her heart was beating fast, she urged the coach driver to move faster. Her ailing mother's nurse wired her, to let her know that its her mother's time to leave. Martha wanted to have one last word with her mother.She loved her mother deeply, after getting married she moved to another town, but they constantly kept in touch through letters.
When she reached her mother's place, her mother was struggling to breath. Seeing her beloved daughter who took such good care of her through out her illness, she felt relief. Her eyes filled with tears as she held her daughter close to her heart and blessed her. She knew how unfulfilled her daughter feels, being childless even after 6 years of her marriage. She reached for a tiny bluish coloured glass bottle by the window sill and gave it to her. She told Martha that this is a blessed portion which will enable her to get pregnant.Her mother left her frail old frame after that.
Martha cried her heart out sitting by the comforting old wooden bannister outside, that she remembered sliding down a million times as a child, right into her mothers arms.This house was filled with memories of her secure and happy childhood, her widowed mother created for her.The smell of freshly baked cakes, ginger cookies, bread and meatloaf with rosemary reminded her of her mother's kitchen. She was loved and nurtured here.
A week later she pondered over taking the potion from the blue bottle to test if it really works, then kept it aside. She loved playing with babies, infant's happy giggles made her stomach tickle with joy. She longed to be a mother, but after 6 years of disappointments she gave up all hope.
A week later she finally gulped down the blessed potion, it had the fragrance of roses.By the end of the month she gave her husband the most unexpected news. They were finally going to be parents, after years of prayers, tears and sadness, god has blessed them.
She was bursting with joy, she knew her mother must have blessed the potion with her prayers.Prayers were her mother's only salvation. For last 18years she had been bed ridden and praying all day. She blessed potions after her prayers for a lot of people who were miraculously healed and blessed with many other good things. It was because of her mother's blessings that she is going to be a mother now, her eyes welled up again. Her next thought was, if she could bless me now, why did she not do this earlier? why she waited for all these years? Why did she let her own daughter suffer so much pain, while she blessed so many others?
The thought gnawed on her psyche repeatedly, months passed , she had a lovely daughter, who reminded her a lot of her mother as grew up. But the thought refuse to leave her heart. Every loving thought about her mother turned into resentment about an act of blessing that was so delayed.
Martha was brimming with joy, she received immense love from her daughter Joanna, When pneumonia struck her with repeated vehemence, Joanna stayed by her side, day and night taking care of her. A year later in spite of constant loving care given by her daughter, she succumbed to the disease.
While leaving her body, she saw her mother smiling lovingly at her through her daughters eyes. Sudden realization dawned on her, Joanna was her mother who came back to her as her daughter.
Her Mother felt so much love and gratitude for her daughter that she decided to come back to return that love, fulfillment her daughter gave her. Above all she came back to take care of her during her disabling sickness, she felt so grateful to her daughter that she decided to repay, even if it takes a life time to do it.A drop of tear rolled out of Martha's eye she could not fathom the depth of her mother's love all these years and now she resented her own resentment. She blessed her Joanna once again and closed her eyes with relief.
Sometimes souls decide to repay each other, or teach us some valuable lessons in certain life times. When people close to us break our heart, when our loved ones put us through tough situations; at a higher level of consciousness they have taken the responsibility of teaching you a certain lesson.Be it forgiveness, acceptance, patience or love. It is out of compassion these souls play out these roles and acts to teach us those lessons. Next time someone is giving you a hard time, specially someone close to you, it is either that soul is allowing you to set things right this time around or to make you understand a repeated cycle of suffering that you are chained to. Once you learn your lesson you are free of that bondage and the two beings move on to learn and create something new for themselves and others. All such exchanges are done in agreement between souls before they take birth.So sooner we learn what we are suppose to accept, learn or give to another person who is putting us through a repeated cycle of suffering or pain, easier it gets for us to move to the next level of learning.
When she reached her mother's place, her mother was struggling to breath. Seeing her beloved daughter who took such good care of her through out her illness, she felt relief. Her eyes filled with tears as she held her daughter close to her heart and blessed her. She knew how unfulfilled her daughter feels, being childless even after 6 years of her marriage. She reached for a tiny bluish coloured glass bottle by the window sill and gave it to her. She told Martha that this is a blessed portion which will enable her to get pregnant.Her mother left her frail old frame after that.
Martha cried her heart out sitting by the comforting old wooden bannister outside, that she remembered sliding down a million times as a child, right into her mothers arms.This house was filled with memories of her secure and happy childhood, her widowed mother created for her.The smell of freshly baked cakes, ginger cookies, bread and meatloaf with rosemary reminded her of her mother's kitchen. She was loved and nurtured here.
A week later she pondered over taking the potion from the blue bottle to test if it really works, then kept it aside. She loved playing with babies, infant's happy giggles made her stomach tickle with joy. She longed to be a mother, but after 6 years of disappointments she gave up all hope.
A week later she finally gulped down the blessed potion, it had the fragrance of roses.By the end of the month she gave her husband the most unexpected news. They were finally going to be parents, after years of prayers, tears and sadness, god has blessed them.
She was bursting with joy, she knew her mother must have blessed the potion with her prayers.Prayers were her mother's only salvation. For last 18years she had been bed ridden and praying all day. She blessed potions after her prayers for a lot of people who were miraculously healed and blessed with many other good things. It was because of her mother's blessings that she is going to be a mother now, her eyes welled up again. Her next thought was, if she could bless me now, why did she not do this earlier? why she waited for all these years? Why did she let her own daughter suffer so much pain, while she blessed so many others?
The thought gnawed on her psyche repeatedly, months passed , she had a lovely daughter, who reminded her a lot of her mother as grew up. But the thought refuse to leave her heart. Every loving thought about her mother turned into resentment about an act of blessing that was so delayed.
Martha was brimming with joy, she received immense love from her daughter Joanna, When pneumonia struck her with repeated vehemence, Joanna stayed by her side, day and night taking care of her. A year later in spite of constant loving care given by her daughter, she succumbed to the disease.
While leaving her body, she saw her mother smiling lovingly at her through her daughters eyes. Sudden realization dawned on her, Joanna was her mother who came back to her as her daughter.
Her Mother felt so much love and gratitude for her daughter that she decided to come back to return that love, fulfillment her daughter gave her. Above all she came back to take care of her during her disabling sickness, she felt so grateful to her daughter that she decided to repay, even if it takes a life time to do it.A drop of tear rolled out of Martha's eye she could not fathom the depth of her mother's love all these years and now she resented her own resentment. She blessed her Joanna once again and closed her eyes with relief.
Sometimes souls decide to repay each other, or teach us some valuable lessons in certain life times. When people close to us break our heart, when our loved ones put us through tough situations; at a higher level of consciousness they have taken the responsibility of teaching you a certain lesson.Be it forgiveness, acceptance, patience or love. It is out of compassion these souls play out these roles and acts to teach us those lessons. Next time someone is giving you a hard time, specially someone close to you, it is either that soul is allowing you to set things right this time around or to make you understand a repeated cycle of suffering that you are chained to. Once you learn your lesson you are free of that bondage and the two beings move on to learn and create something new for themselves and others. All such exchanges are done in agreement between souls before they take birth.So sooner we learn what we are suppose to accept, learn or give to another person who is putting us through a repeated cycle of suffering or pain, easier it gets for us to move to the next level of learning.
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